Chapter 13 - Ryan Heard His Daughter’s Heartbeat One Last Time Through a Court Order
The divorce did not finish before my daughter was born.
Neither did Ryan’s criminal case.
Life refused to arrange itself into clean chapters just because I wanted closure.
Ryan requested involvement in prenatal decisions through his attorney.
My lawyer handled it.
The court balanced his parental interests with the protective conditions in place.
No private contact.
No appearing at appointments.
No using Linda as messenger.
After birth, paternity and parenting arrangements would be addressed through proper proceedings focused on the child’s welfare.
Ryan did not lose all legal rights merely because I hated him.
That was difficult for Dad.
It was difficult for me.
But reality matters most when emotion wants shortcuts.
At thirty-seven weeks, I went into labor.
Dad drove me to Womack.
He was more nervous than I was.
“Colonel Bennett,” I said between contractions, “if you ask the nurse whether the fetal monitor is calibrated one more time, she is going to throw you out.”
“I’m just asking questions.”
“You’re conducting an inspection.”
The nurse laughed.
Dad stopped.
Mostly.
My daughter was born at 4:18 a.m.
Seven pounds, two ounces.
Healthy.
Furious.
Perfect.
I named her Caroline James Carter.
Caroline after Mom.
James after Dad.
When I placed her in his arms, Colonel Bennett cried so hard the nurse quietly left the room to give him dignity.
He looked down at her.
“Hi, sweetheart.”
Caroline grabbed one of his fingers.
That was it.
The colonel was finished.
Later I caught him whispering:
“Your mother is the toughest person I know.”
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I closed my eyes.
For once, I let somebody else tell my daughter the story.
